Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Just have patience, He says.
I'm frustrated. It seems God wants to teach me patience...and I havent quite grasped the concept yet. :-( Three years I havent dated anyone. Three years! And I have reasons, I do. I have these standards. They arent crazy, but so many people tell me they are unrealistic and that I will never find this man I am waiting for because he doesnt exist. But, I just cant believe thats true. The root of it is Christ. I need a man who loves the Lord with all his heart, and can be a spiritual leader. And in a relationship with me, a very strong leader type person, that would mean being a GREAT spiritual leader. I know that I intimidate guys with my confidence, but truthfully, I am not going to change. Because thats how I am. And if I have to change who I am for a guy, then...He's not who I want to be with. Goodness...its just hard. Because its not that I dont want to be with someone...its just that he hasnt come along yet. And I am getting sick of waiting, but I just CANT settle. I sometimes wish I could...but I cant....I cant.