Humidifiers and Jesus

Nothing beats laying on a blanket on the floor of your dorm room with your bible and journal open, praising the Lord to the hum of a humidifier. My nose may be running, my chest congested, heck I may not even be able to sing well, but I am still going to praise the Lord. He is so worthy, and has done so much! I found another fantastic verse tonight...

"And yet the reason you don't have what you want is that you don't ask God for it". -James 4:2

I like this verse...mostly because it makes me feel like I should get everything I ask for, haha!...UNTIL I read the verse right after it, which I found tonight was conveniently NOT HIGHLIGHTED in my bible like the verse before it had been...

"...And even when you do ask, you don't get it because your whole motive is wrong- you only want what will give you pleasure". -James 4:3


I think that's the part I miss. I am all gung-ho about asking God for things...but are my motives always pure? I think not. So that is where I found myself tonight...lying on the floor....praying that God would search my heart, and my motives and make them what they should be. I want to be well, and I prayed a lot for that to happen, but ya know, if God doesnt want me to get over this cold by tomorrow in time for my recital...then it wont happen. And I have to accept that. Sometimes God teaches us more in times of discomfort. I would rather grow more dependent spiritually on the Lord because I am sick, than to be well and singing. I mean really, what's more important here? I know the answer to that. And that's why I say...

" How do you know what will happen tomorrow? For your life is like the morning fog- it's here a little while and then its gone. What you ought to say is 'If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that'. Otherwise, you will be boasting about your own plans, and all such boasting is evil". - James 4:14-16